I Dare to Tell the Truth

Truthful lips endure for ever, but a lying tongue lasts only a moment.
Do you dare to tell the truth?  I do.  Here are five minutes of writing by me on true words this week…
A young mom enters my speech therapy office with her two year old: “Oh honey don’t pick your nose.”
Me: “It’s okay.  We all do.”

A perfect mother.:
Our dog in a cone post neutering.
Me in my head: “Great.  We have a special needs dog now.  I have to adapt how we hold him, and how we feed him.” 
I was able to move his food from bowels to plates and now he can eat and drink independently.  Apparently he no longer wants to poop or pee outdoors though.  And, we have to hold him by his sides or hind legs gingerly to move him up or down steps or to our laps.  Seven days of the cone…oh my heart.

Our other heart struggle and joy are our own two sons.  Picture this…two boys lounging on couches on screens ages seven and ten years:  One on Zelda Wii U, and the other on his tablet playing games.
Me: “Boys you need to take a screen break.”
Them: no response for 5-10 minutes
Me: “Boys it is now 4:30 p.m. so you have relaxed on screens for about an hour.  Please take a break when you get to a stopping point in your games.”
Them: no response for 45+ minutes
Me: I talk with my boss on the phone, switch a load of laundry, put in a new load of laundry, defrost chicken for dinner, and try to breath deeply through the stresses of my own stuff.

I make lists on paper.  I try to get Medicaid certification online.  Our state IT system for renewal is not cooperating.  Or, am I not using it right?  I make another 1-800 call and email the system for the 10th + time in the past three months.  I also call my boss back two times to ask questions and let her know I’m working on the issue so we can both get paid for my speech services over the next year.  It is now 5:20 p.m.
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Me calling the boys again this time yelling loudly: “Get off your screens boys!  It is now 5:20.  Do your homework (Bryan) and a chore (Addison).  Your laundry needs to be put away boys.  I wash and dry and fold.  YOU put it away!”

Them: “Huff. Puff.  Ugh.  Okay.”
Addison: storms off to his room after ending his Zelda time
Bryan: “Mom, I’m so sorry.  What do you need me to do?  Homework.  I have one page left and one problem on the front.”  He gathers his stuff together and gets to work at the kitchen table.  After I sit with him doing math homework he goes to his room and puts away his laundry in 5 minutes or less.
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Addison returns with a bucket of dirty laundry.  I asked if the other was put away.  He said,  “Yes, this is the new dirty stuff.”  Mind you I just did all of his laundry on Monday.  It is now Thursday and somehow he has a 3/4 full laundry basket?!  What in the heck is going on here.  Oh God help me.  I love them.  I love them.  I love them.  (in my head).

Dear God,
You are with us in ALL things and ALL moments.
Forgive us when we forget You in the midst of stress and frustration.
Help me re-center my thoughts and phrase my words with peace, love, and kindness.
Give me the energy for another day as a mom, wife, friend, maid, etc. 


Define My Job Lord…

Today’s five minute Friday prompt is “Define.”  Ready, set, write…

5:56 a.m.

Define my job Lord.  I often find my mind and heart asking God to give me clear direction.  What the heck do you want me to do today?  This week?  This month?  This year?  Am I to be a just a mom, an amazing back flipping (not ever going to happen unless I get the trampoline I’ve always wanted for the back yard) lady, or a rock start speech language pathologist?  Do you need me to volunteer more at the school?  Or less?

Lord, do you need me to volunteer in the community somewhere?  Do you need me to offer the homeless guy on the corner a job at our house doing hand work?  Define my job Lord.

Everyone doesn’t want a definition, but I do.  I want to know what to do, when to do it, and how to do it well.  I’m a great student.  I’ve always been a great student.  I love studying my Bible, non-fiction books, and reading online articles about so many topics your head may pop.

My head hasn’t popped yet, so I know God has a plan for me.  I know he has already fulfilled many plans through me and my family.  We have had such great blessings and hardships that we can share empathy, money, sympathy, and love pretty freely.

Sharing love freely.  I guess that’s my job.  I will go with that for today.  Thank you God for clarifying my job description in five minutes time.

6:01 a.m.

“We are each singular threads in the world.  We all get to decide what we will tie our lives to.  If I tie my resources, my time, my Esther-power, only to the thin thread of my own life-my life’s a hopelessly knotted mess.

The thread of your life becomes a tapestry of abundant colors only if it ties itself to other lives.  The only way to strengthen the fabric of society is to let threads of your life break away to let Christ, who is in us, weave around other threads.” 

Ann Voskamp, The Broken Way

This is a beautiful example of the work being done by my quilting teacher.: Photo Credit: Penny Berens

p.s. I need to read more about Esther, a Jewish Queen in the Bible who apparently risked some personal safety for others.  Maybe you need to find out more about her too.  Find someone to tie your life to today.  It may be someone unexpected!






Here’s a snapshot or some Jenn Notes:

One of my favourite stories in the bible. I have always enjoyed reading and learning about this amazing Queen that God chose.:

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Queen Esther answered, “If I have found favor in your eyes, O King, and if it please the king, give me my life, and give my people their lives.”
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Dear God,
You have placed us each in a place predetermined by You.
Forgive me when I look for new places to go or spread MY ideas etc.
Help me to look closer at those in my path today.
Give me grace to love freely.  Give me the hope in my heart that I am already where you need me.  Give me strength to bravely stand up for those who need an advocate.