I’m not afraid of depression or anxiety anymore. I have learned that the fear of failure is okay. In finding peace with myself, my Savior, and with my emotions I became more confident and calm.
This blog is about grace. I was asked last night by Amy, a new woman I met, “What do you blog about?”
I told her…”I have a faith based blog, but I write about our family, capture memories, and write about whatever I feel like really.”
Today, I rose before dawn per usual. I took some photographs around the house to test out new photography info I gleaned last night on a mom’s night out dinner. The manual mode of our good camera is not something I have played with before, but I did it today! Now, I link this post with other Five Minute Friday bloggers. We write on Fridays for five minutes on a prompt word. This week: “Fear.”
I was a bit fearful during childhood. I did not like new situations…so I would suck my thumb, then converted to biting my nails, and continued with anxiety into adulthood. I covered it up pretty well then and now. We all like to hide the broken aspects of our personality. Here, I’m free to write how I feel and see myself. I can even zoom up on the cracks that I now view as beautiful parts of the way God made me. I’m an introverted analytical girl. I think about the details of everything and everyone. I analyze others and myself. I look carefully and ponder the feelings within text, nature, and people. Do you?
I used to be afraid of being a good enough wife and mother. I still have fleeting thoughts tied into that, but again, that is who I am. I have found a place of grace. I can say to myself: “I’m a good mom.” “I’m a good wife.” “I’m a good friend.” “I’m a good sister and daughter.” I’m good because God made me in His image. He is good…therefore WE are good. YOU are good.
You are good, full of grace, and love unconditionally.
Forgive me when I don’t show the good side of me, am stingy on grace, or love with a contrite spirit.
Thank you for showing me that broken is beautiful, and in our brokenness we find more of You.
When we admit that we cannot do today on our own we let You show us your face in others, experiences, and in the images that are good in this world.
May we count our gifts of grace today.
A cheerful heart does good like medicine, but a broken spirit makes one sick.