Waiting to feel good…
For many months and years I struggled with anxiety and depression. I still struggle with anxiety from time to time, but I know how to rein it in. I also know how to pray more, breathe more, and take my medicine faithfully.
Anxiety and Depression are awful…they truly make you feel worthless, sad, crazy, fearful, tired, stressed, and silly. However, there are so many people that struggle with feelings of anxiousness or depressed moods. These feelings can be related to hormonal imbalance, life events, and sometimes for no good reason at all.
The reason I post about waiting today is because I realized in talking to one of my best childhood friends today on the phone (I’ve been waiting for her to call me back for months)…I am done waiting to be happy. I am at a happy place. I like my job, I feel healthy, active, I know who my friends are, I know I’m a good mom, and my marriage feels good too.
We go through such trials in life…and sometimes those trials involve waiting…
Waiting for babies to grow so they sleep more and eat more.
Waiting for our husband/spouse to find the right job.
Waiting for the seasons to change.
Waiting for a child to be born/conceived.
Waiting for healing.
Waiting for the day to be over so you can just go to sleep and rest…for tomorrow to be better. Some days we do wait. We wait with patience sometimes and at other times with anxiousness. However, when we accept help, greet the day with determination, and choose to love ourselves and others…we eventually wait no longer.
We find our happy place.
Thank you for the realization that I’m in a good place today…this week…this year.
Forgive me for those times I doubted things would ever get better.
Give me eyes to see others who need encouragement, and give these words to the women and men that need to hear…you are not alone. Struggles are okay.
Help us to wait for the good days knowing that You are with us every step of the way.